Have you ever wondered, what would it be like if the only way to escape pain is death itself? I know it sounded foolish, but don't worry because I'm not considering committing suicide. I have this sudden thought because I'm lying on this bed doing nothing, and gazing at the stars is the only thing I can do right now. No one at Twitter, and I guess no one at MSN that I can chat to as well. I suddenly think that euthanasia should actually be allowed in Singapore because firstly, you never know how painful that guy is, both physically and emotionally. Emotional pain is really totally unbearable. I'm not talking about the emotional pain caused by breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend, but the pain caused by the death of your loved ones. Because I know everyone have to bear this one day, unless you die right now. I don't want that day to happen ):

Shut. Why am I talking about all this? Nobody is gonna read my blog anymore already because I've been locking it for a few months. Now that I finally open it to the public again, who will be there to patron my blog? I really wanna get away from this damned school. I tell you, my beloved blog, I will isolate myself from everything that have any relation with this school once I graduate from there. Yes, heartless to say, but literally everything from there. The environment, the 'memories', the teachers, and even the people I know. Yes, I'm that heartless. I seriously can't take the heat from the people there. The kind of eyes that looked at me, the aura of 'I better be at least 1000 nautical miles away from this guy', the way they talked to me, they way they acted when with me, the kind of glares and attitudes, the kind of immediate discrimination, et cetera.

Okay, again I have no idea what I'm talking about. But anyway, who cares? This blog is only patronize by me. I'm like talking to myself, and for myself to read in the future, and thinking 'what a childish Yaojun this is' in 10 years time from now I suppose. :/

Time to sleep again. Hope I can sleep. Please sleep. I'm tired. Yes, I'm tired. Get this right in my head you ass'd brain. I hate studying, and I hate you, the stealth readers of this blog (if there's any, but I doubt so).

“When you need someone by your side, I’m always there for you. Now I need someone by my side, and who is willing to do that for me? No one I guess. Not a single soul is around. This headache is killing me ultimately, and I just have to bear the excruciating torment alone at this lonely night because I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep because I already slept the whole day for a getaway from the pain itself, and now, I’m too energetic to sleep and all I can do is to endure this fuck.”
—Yaojun Yong

One of my all-time favourite song. Radiohead by Creep. (Y)

FUNDAY (:

Today was a fun day. Haha, went to Resorts World Sentosa with my beloved friends - Mingli, Weizhao, Shikin and Zhelun (: Wz actually SMS'd + call me in the afternoon to ask me to go, but I replied and slept for countless of times. In the end, met Shikin, Wz and Zl at nearly 7PM at JP. Haha, so train'd to HarbourFront and meet Ml at exactly 8PM. So took the $2 bus trip to RWS. Alighted at RWS, and paid $5 entrance fee to Universal Studios. It's very cheap because nearly 3/4 of the place was closed, since rides close at 8PM. Went around there and decided to have our dinner at a pizza place. Hahah, the pizza was damn big man. $40.50. Each of us paid like $8+? Hahha, cheap lo! So after that, took photos and walk around USS. Stopped at a smoking corner and they started smoking and slacking there until 10:05PM, where all the fireworks started shooting hahaha!! Damn nice man. It's been a long long time since I watched a live fireworks. Anyway, I saw 6 Lamborghini outside the Casino entrance. Damn nice lo! I wish I have one T.T After that fireworks thingy, went to make a RWS membership card. Got my card directly. Their photocard camera for the card damn funny. Use webcam one LOL. Wz can't take his card because he forget to bring his IC/NS card. LOL HAHAH!!! Then took the monorail out of RWS, and bus'd home from Vivo. It was so fun because we're all joking and fooling around hahaha. (Y) One of the best day of my life! (:

And we actually planned an outing this coming Sunday/Monday. Cycling and morning barbeque session LOL! Next week going to USS again with the same clique for the real fun. Going in the morning/afternoon. Should be ~S$70+ I think. Alrighty, bye earthlings! (: Fun day today. Hope this will happen forever (:

It's a fuck'd up day today. So Jon SMS'd me to go Volcom Fashion Show at Zouk. So fetched Jon, Zl, Daryl, Linus and Eileen there. Met Bryan there later. Lot's of idiotic stuff happened man. I didn't slept for over 50 hours because of the day before outing to West Coast Park with Sean and Cassey. Well, the study outing to West Coast Park wasn't productive at all. Idk why man LOL! Don't know if it's because of the place, the study environment, or the people. So awkward la, not even close with Cassey -__- Okay, back to the Zouk story. Aiya, don't even feel like talking about. I parked my car in a hotel, beside Zouk. The parking fee was OMG man. Like $4.50 / hr? Eileen told me to change carpark cos it was way too expensive. So I did. It was $14.30 when I drove out of the hotel's carpark. So I went to search for a parking lot elsewhere, where Jon was kpkb because I went to change the parking lot. Also not you pay of course you'll say it la. Petrol I pay, parking fee I pay. What's more? Not you pay you better shut the hell up. So all of my friends are enjoying in Zouk/Phuture, while I went back to my car to sleep. Who cares about all the pretty girls. Sleep is obviously more important. Half way while MSN-ing and slacking in my car while waiting for them to finish clubbing, my phone went out of batt. So I've to drive back home alr cos firstly, they didn't reply my SMS and secondly, I can't contact them alr.

When I reached home, Jon kpkb me in Twitter and told me to he'll treat me transparent from today onwards. Why transparent, and not invisible? Transparent still can see, invisible = cannot at all. Idiotic retarded shit. Always act one big fuck, when you apparently know nothing at all.

I'm kinda exhausted from school. School sucks to the core. I hate it. The first time I ever hate school that much. This didn't happen in secondary school at all. Obviously not in primary either. JC is just way too hard for non-study freaks like me. Arghhh, how am I able to score well for my A's and get into a local uni? I'll break so many people's heart if I can't get into a local uni at all. It's not working ):

Anyway, it's damn random but I've to say. My big brother asked me to drive out a car from my house because it's totally blocking his sports car from driving out. End up he say he's not gonna drive since he's gonna drink with his friends. I drove him to the nearby bus-stop wearing a boxer and nothing else instead. When alighting him and driving home, I got caught by tp (traffic police). Have to walk out of my car in a boxer to do alcohol test since I drove in a weird outfit and without a license card. DAMN PAISEH SIA WTH. Driving for like 200m only what. It's so common to drive such a short distance without bringing my wallet and phone right? Somemore it's so impromptu. No need to make me blush until like this right, stupid TP! *shy*

TGIT. Thanks God it's Thursday. First time saying this. HAHAH, why? Because it's half-day on Friday for celebration and there's no school on Monday because of the actual National Day. Tuesday's gonna be a holiday in lieu. Hahah, so technically and practically, it's a supposedly 5 days holiday heheh! :P Hope it's really a 5 days holiday. Will tell you guys after surviving Thursday, since it's gonna be a long day. All thanks to what? To the freaking Chemistry, of course.

I gave school a miss today. Pretty bored so decided not to go school! Anyway, we're gonna have a 4 days holiday, am I right? Friday half-day, and Monday's a National Day Holiday! Hhaah, love the holidays. Whoa, I can't believe I'm such a slack hahahah! Woohoo, I love love love Fridays. Who's with me? Well, next week's gonna be the first time I've fall in love with Mondays too! And wait... Tuesday is also a holiday? HAHAH! Gonna jump around my bed like a roti prata now. Bye HAHH! (:

Ego is the evilest thing ever

Why does people only learn after they've suffered? I've told you countless times not to do it, but still you did. When you continue to do, I know this day would come. The day where you say, 'I shouldn't have did it. Damn'. Told you. Ego is the evilest thing ever. I told you not to retaliate. Told you not to fight back. But what's the result? You did. And the consequences? Got expelled from school. Sometimes you really need to listen to the voices of your friends. True friends never harms you and make you do the wrong things (together, at least). A minor wrong step in the past can cause a storm of disappointment in the future. Ego..., it harms you in every way possible.

Sometimes I really think I've known too much stuff on the pursuit of life at a tender age of 18. People at my age are super ignorant at stuff, am hard to differentiate the good from the bad, and vice versa. At only a young age of 14, I know smoking is bad for health, drugs harm and numbs the brain; casuing damages that can last a lifetime. I learnt that money is the only survival tool in this world. There is no full-trustworthiness for human beings, even in your closest kin. I learnt that power and money is the ultimate weapon in this era. I learnt that loneliness is the most non-physical desolate a human can ever suffer. I learnt that ego is the evilest thing in life, being able to bring you from the top to the bottom in unimaginative seconds. I learnt that the most painful emotionally feeling is to see your loved ones suffer right before your eyes, and not being able to do anything to help, et cetera, and the list continues.

Why does human beings learn only when they are at the doorstep of regret?

Hey yeah. Oh my oh my hahaha! Am addicted to kpop. Geegeez. Aiya, I know I can easily stop listening to kpop. Haha, anyway I've to fetch my 3rd bro, YAOSHENG, to the airport in like 9 hours time? Haha, he's leaving for Taiwan for vacation. I want to go on a holiday trip too! ): Arghhh, hate A's. Must persevere! Gonna get my ass to HK and NY end of this year! Don't give up so easily, little readers! Love this parcel of your life, for it'll be gone very soon. You hate this part of your life, but remember, when you leave this part behind, you'll be missing it like hell. Schooling is much easier than working. Schooling have one unimportant thing of concern - Results. Working have tons and tons of important ones, one being making money.

I thing I'm improving alr! I'm starting to love Chemistry, but not Physics yet! ): Mathematics should be okay for me as of now, and econs just on/off results, eh hahah! My CT results looked sucky though.
Results:
GP - S
Math - B
Econs - C
Physics - S
Chemistry - U

Can form, U C SBS (You see SBS)! HAHAHAH!~ okay, that was lame lol -___- anyway, little earthlings, do not give up on school yet. Not now, not this time. It's the last lap! (:

I kinda love myself now haha! I know how to play Haru Haru on the piano hahah! The tune can come out, but not that perfect yet. Am trying, am trying.. Don't give me stress HAHAH! :x Hehe, anyway my daddy/mummy bought a car (supposedly) for me. BMW 3 Series! :D 320i to be exact. Okay la, the car not very big, but still it's already a luxury brand to start with! (: A simple comfy car for me, a little boy in this world. HAHAH, will stop the self-compliment now hahah! Bye, the sweet lovers of my blog! Adios, lovey-doveys! (:

I'm tired of the song thing. LOL, it's really damn hard to complete it man. I really can't complete stuff at all, eh? Oh, well. That's me! That's what make up me! I don't care but i'm not gonna emo for this bad side of me, because it makes up me! You see, little earthlings, life isn't perfect at all. I have my own area of flaws. I'm not good at studying, communicating, and I kinda love to do bad things, be the infamous limelight of the night, do crazy naughty things, find trouble with people with fuck'd up attitude etc.. This is the bad side of me, and hey people out there, I don't hate myself for being all these! I actually love myself for all these because it's what make up me! (: you see, in life we're good at some thing, and bad at the other. No one is perfect, and don't ever try to be one because, practice doesn't really make perfect.

Anyway, I'm lost! I don't know what to do for my life. Arghhh! Why am I born in Singapore? ): Not that Singapore is bad, but rather, too good for me! So competitive man. This explains why Singapore is at the 131th at the most happiest ranking list, eh? Looks kinda scary right, haha! Our GDP per capita is one of the top 10, one of the Four Asian Tigers, low infant mortality rate, low gini coefficient, top tourist area of interest etc., but super low at the happy ranking list? HAHAHHA, that's a joke! :/ Anyway, who cares?

I'm actually kinda happy these few days in school. I don't know why! :/ Maybe I'm becoming a nerd soon? Hhaa, I don't mind anyway! (: Whoa, A's really round the corner! What should I do? Still can't find someone to study with me! Arghhh, I might as well commit suicide! :/ And I have math quiz tomorrow, have to redo chem quiz (Grp 7 & TM) and Case Study test? HAHAH, not gonna touch on any. Not because I'm complacent or wht, but I you guys should know I don't really take test/quiz/exam seriously right? Not like some nerds out there who will freaking mug the whole day and not sleep at all just to pass it, and end up failing. I know my aim now is A's and not some stupid prelim or CT. They are just minor stuff man. Way off my priority list.

Watching Inception this Friday night with my lovey-dovey friends! Haha! Super looking forward to it! It's gonna be a mind-blowing session with my beloved! HAHAH! Eh the titanic main actor inside, eh! Support lei hahah!! :D:D:D