HOLIDAY DAY 3 (2ND HALF)

Okay, apparently it sucks to be me. What did I do today? Well, drinking barrels of water and watching TV.
Accompany someone to cut hair and went back home. No coughing at all, just hella pain when swallowing stuff.
But to my surprise, my voice didn't even change at all HAHAH!!! Sianz to be me! ):
Someone save me from this pain plz. I'd rather suffer from the true physical pain than this phy-emo pain.
But never'd I try to suffer from emotional pain! It's way more painful than physical.
She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one!

Current Mood: Crying in pain!

Side note: GG! http://yaojun.tumblr.com/post/646957952/gg

Q: How to put someone to sleep over the phone?
A: The best way to put someone to sleep is to play relaxing music. Try telling a really boring story!

Epic. I'm gonna try it on my friend who can't fall asleep the next time HAHAH!

HOLIDAY DAY 3 (Half-way)

Today, I woke up with my throat crying in pain. It's getting worst man. Save me! ):
Waiting for Febian to reply my SMS on going to town. BUT WHERE IS YOUR REPLY!
I don't wanna lock myself in my room again. Sucks lo. Will keep think of stuff one!
Anyway, my bro bought me 3 x D&G boxer. It cost over 200+ la LOL!
My life's a bore! ): From the day I stepped into a GOD-DAMN JC. )))))))):
BRUISED AND SCARRED. SAVE ME FROM THIS BROKEN HEART. Wah epic song lol!
'The Notebook' can really describe how your life is going through now.

Current mood: Bored

HOLIDAY DAY 2 (Unproductive)

Today is a super boring day. Was suppose to go out to shop for my wallet, but the 3 pigs sleep until so late -_-
Now they just went home/out/whatever, and I'm stucked at home doing nothing.
My sore throat is seriously super jialat. Sigh, when I try to swallow my saliva, I feel the painful hindrance inside my throat.
LOL, I write until like that :x I was never able to spit out my phlegm no matter how hard I try from the day I was born.
So when I have sore throat, it'll take days to weeks to fully heal. I feel pain when I cough, eat, swallow and breathing.
Sucks to be me. Sigh, it's been a few years since I last fell sick. Luckily there isn't any fever.
Heaty body, arching muscles, tired eyes, breathing out hot air and painful sore throat.
Faster heal please, Yaojun! Always fall sick at the start of the holiday. It's always like this. Why? T.T
Can anyone tell me what is the date I've to go back to school? I don't know anything at all. ):

Anyway, I just jailbroken (rooted) my Nexus One. Now can buy apps from Android Market and Nagivation is available! ^^
Also, well better not say out all. Have to give you guys a shock when you see me HAHAH!!!
It's a bore to stay at home the whole day. Sian sian sian!!! SZP! :x Where is the love! ):
And I didn't tell any of my family members that I'm sick. Nobody knows except that three joker!
Zef bought me 2 quick-bites cookies from 7-11, and 2 THREE LEGS COOLING WATER? ROFL THE NAME!
It's a chinese herbal water. But no taste one lei. It's called san jiao biao qin re shui. LOL HAHA!
Thanks my lovey cousin and friends. I love you guys! ^^ They gave me at like 4AM in the morning yesterday! <3
Have to lock myself in the room watching TV, playing games, tumblring and listening to radio? I don't want! ):
Looking at shopping catalogue in my email now -_- So many pretty wallets from TOD'S, Hermes, YSL and Versace.
Have been watching Channel 61/62/63 all day long. Chinese movies. Funny, but I don't wanna stuff myself in the room! ):
I wanna go out! Nobody wanna go out with me cos they're afraid of getting sick? Or they don't want me to get worst?
Dota anyone? Matthew? Chunkiat? Jon? Bryan? Tsui? Zhiyang? Kwangyang? Kelvin? Zef? Sean? Nelson? Dickson?
WHERE ARE YOU GUYS! )): T.T Q.Q

Current Mood: Sick and feverish-like feeling

Holiday Day 1! (Vesak Day)

I slept at 7AM yesterday! ): And I didn't take any sip of water before sleeping.
I'm now all down and sick. I hate this. Sick on the first day of holiday. It's always like this.
Zef and Linus went to my house yesterday to entertain me!
We talked about all sorts of things - friendship, relationship, the girl we love, studies, drama shows etc..
They end up sleeping on my bed. 3 guys sleeping on my bed. Omg unglam :/ Luckily it's a king-sized bed!
Woke up at 1PM and went to sleep again!!! ): So I last woke up at 5PM and I psycho them to go town.
HAHA and they kena psycho'd. They waited for me to prepare myself, and then cabbed to Zef's house to wait for him.
Linus cab back to prepare as well. Daryl wanted to follow us so we went to town together. :/
We cabbed to Linus's condo to wait for him, and everyone was smoking, including the taxi driver, while waiting.
ROFL!! Haha, but not me. I don't smoke. I quitted. It's not good for me for any reason in the world you can find.
We cabbed to town and it cost us $19.80 HAHA! Kinda cheap lo. ^^
I found out I cabbed down just to pass Jon my Takashimaya membership card? )):
I WANNA SHOP AT THIS GREAT SINGAPORE SALE! T.T
Accompany Jon to buy the agnes b bag for his GF. Zzz -_-!
My Armani wallet is so jialat lo now. I'm changing a wallet soon.
I spotted a Gucci wallet and I'm gonna buy it next week! Time to sell my LG Crystal for it! ^^ Hahha!
But I found a Fendi wallet also super nice! OMG, I wanna buy ): My bro told me to buy the LV monogram one.
But that one like so common la. No thanks! ROFL! Need to pay myself lo! Sucks ):
End up took public transport back to Jurong! Yay! (Y)
Zef and Linus went to JP to watch movie with Hambert.
Me and Jon went to Starbucks to talk about my current situation now. ):
What should I do? :x Arghhhh!!!!! I'm always stucked at the same old situation.
Went to bus interchange to take 241 to my house, and saw Weijie in the queue to, just behind us.
He saw us but didn't say 'hi' to us. Only said 'hi' to us when we said 'hi' to him.
For an introverted anti-social guy to say 'hi' first. WHAT IS THIS!! T.T
Now Jon's at my house playing Modern Warfare 2 on my com. I'm using lappy now! :/
Linus and maybe Zef coming over to my house to play later!
Sianz! I wanna buy so many things now. Shoes, tuxedo, Tag Heuer watch, a Y-3 pants and a G/A belt!
No money to buy all! Sad )))):
And I'm sick now, I think. Shit!!!


Current mood: Sad and sick ):

Just unpublised all my previous post. Memories weren't gone.
I just feel like keeping inside me rather than showing it to other people.
I'll only treat this blog as my diary from now on.
Not gonna emo here anymore. Not at facebook, twitter and tumblr too.
Will only do that in my private blog or IRL.

Daily quotes can still be seen from my tumblr @ http://yaojun.tumblr.com/
Follow me on Twitter @ http://twitter.com/yyaojun/
(Anyway, I'm unregistering my twitter soon as well. Probably next week or so.)

Cheers~ ^-^

I'M SO WANTING TO LEAVE THIS SCHOOL NOW.
A'S COME FASTER PLEASE.
I'M GONNA

SEE? NOW EVERYONE IS IGNORING ME.

Anyway, if you o

I'm so tempted to blog this shit out now.
The government should do something about the massive amount of foreign 'talent' in our country.
Banglas especially. They're making me so pissed off man.
While I was on board bus 241 on my way home, this retarded blangla dashed across the bus to the back to steal an old women's seat. That old women was already about to seat and he just snatched it?
This isn't the worst. The worst is, he fucking laugh his ass off at that poor women for failing to find a seat.
That women is like so poor thing la. Walk so slow, can't really see clearly and hunched back.
And that blangla just steal the seat like this? What a fag man. Stupid insolent impudent imbecile.
I can take people insulting me, discriminating me, dodging me for who I am, giving me that fucked up look from the way I walk and look and present myself, saying bad things behind my back, spreading fake rumors in school, but I can't take this kind of stuff.

Yeah and I know I shouldn't be in a JC. You guys don't have to constantly telling that behind by back.
I know I'm more suited in ITE, or even AVI (boys-homed/jailed ppl who went there to study). I know I should be a criminal in the society, because my looks tell me so? w/e

I wish I have the ability to just forget everyone that I know in JC. You, they, we, them, him, her. Everyone.

I think I'm just gonna give up (:

“Sometimes when I can’t sleep, I picture my funeral and write eulogies in my head. In the fantasy, I almost always die in some tragic but unavoidable way. A drunk driver mows me down. Or a brain aneurysm. I make sure I suffer little, but die with courage and dignity and clean underwear. I like to think more about the funeral rather than how I die. Who would come? Who would face their fears of public speaking and get their ass to the pulpit? Who would decide that they had better things to do than to show up at all? I wonder if people would cry, and if there is anyone in the world who would hold the tears back for fear of never stopping.”

— ~ Julie Buxbaum

This theory is so damn true. I always wanted to know how important am I to the people I know. Like, getting yourself into a fatal accident deliberately, and seeing how many people will come to see you. Like dying for the first time, and see who'd attend your funeral. Like when you're dead, and when you become a spirit or something, you'd want to know what people think of you. Maybe next time I should try this once. Who would come?

Lying on my bed now. I can't sleep, and all of a sudden, this song came to my mind.

If by Bread
If a picture paints a thousand words, then why can't I paint you?
If a man could be two places at one time, I'd be with you.
Bread - If

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away.

Good night and sweet dreams, my lovey blog. (:
[Posted using Android Froyo 2.2 for Google Nexus One at 3:22AM]

According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs & a head with 2 faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two seperate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.

-Plato's the Symposium

I want you to know that I still believe in the gift of love. I want you to believe in it too. You deserve that in your life, for nothing is more fulfilling than love itself.

- Nicholas Sparks, The Last Song

Epic quote.

I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you - just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down - not just when you're fun to be with. 'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them - asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me.

Sometimes, you just need someone to talk to. Someone who is not only willing to be there for you, but understands you & what you’re going through. Someone who you put down your guards & reveal your imperfections to. Someone who will never judge you or sway away even from the mistakes you make. Someone who doesn’t need words to prove but you both know that the person will always be there. Someone who loves you, truly for who you are. One of the greatest gifts in life is having the chance to find someone like that in your life.

To let go isn’t to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t winning and it isn’t losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It’s not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss, and it’s not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on. It is having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon again. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free.

Tmr = last day. Should I be happy, or? I don't know ):
Anyway, sometimes I have this thought in my mind, 'Who will actually cry for me when I die?'
I know it's super random, though. :/

Anyway, I DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING FOR COMMON TEST. I FEEL LIKE PLAYING ALL THE WAY. WHY MUST WE STUDY )):
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL CALCULATE HOW LONG WE REACH THE FLOOR IF WE COMMIT SUICIDE.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL HAVE TO KNOW HOW MANY ELECTRONS WERE PRODUCED WHEN WE EMIT PHOTONS ON A METAL.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL DRAW OUT A GRAPH WHEN WE SEE STATISTIC IN MAGAZINES.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL NEED TO KNOW THE EXACT NUMBER OF PEOPLE WHO ARE UNEMPLOYED IN THE COUNTRY.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL FIND OUT HOW MANY WATER MOLECULES WE ARE DRINKING IN WHEN WE DRINK WATER.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL USE ORANGE JUICE AND METAL BARS TO PRODUCE ELECTRICITY.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL FIND THE SUMMATION OF HOW MANY CHICKENS WERE BORN USING EQUATIONS.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL HAVE TO KNOW THE WHAT ARG(A + BI) OR EULER'S FORM IS.
IT'S NOT LIKE WE'LL USE EPICLY UBER ENGLISH TO TALK AND WRITE ON OUR DAY TO DAY LIFE.

DAMNZX! ):

Sometimes I have this feeling in me that informs me when you're in trouble. All this came to me without any prior notice. It's like my heart skipped a beat, telling me you're in trouble or danger. The feeling sucks because I do not know what to do if something happen to you. But there is also this evil feeling inside me that tells me I shouldn't care about you at all. This evil feeling overwhelmed me for a bit, but after that, I end up caring more because it pains me. There is always a devil and angel inside me. But I always choose the angel over the devil. Did cupid just shot the wrong girl of my life? Why must it be me and her?

-YaoJun

Why can we only listen to our own thoughts? Are we living in a world of our own?

Sometimes, you just need someone to talk to. Someone who is not only willing to be there for you, but understands you & what you’re going through. Someone who you out down your guards & reveal your imperfections. Someone who will never judge you or sway away even from the mistakes you make. Someone who doesn’t need words to prove but you both know that the person will always be there. Someone who loves you, truly for who you are. One of the greatest gifts in life is having the chance to find someone like that in your life.

Spose - I'm Awesome


LOL FUNNY VIDEO. DAMN UNGLAM -_-

I've had a few crushes before, and I've let go all of them. Now this crush is so strong that I'm not gonna do that to hurt my heart again. I'll do all I can to have you by my side. Can you make this a little easier for me?

See, this is exactly what I’m talking about: when I need you, you’re not there. When you need me, I’m always there in a blink. And you call yourself a good friend? Think again.

I’m tired of waiting for you, I’m sick of always falling for your words. I want to leave, but something about you keeps pulling me back in.

Every night you cried yourself to sleep thinking: “Why does this happen to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard?”

I am who I am. I’m weird, I’m lame, I run into things, I spill food, I trip, I scream about random and stupid stuff. I obviously don’t have it all together, but I like it that way.

Lately I’ve realized that all I really need is somebody who will listen to my bullshit, call me out on my bullshit, and love me despite my bullshit.

There you go, ('.')! (:

Anyone understand how I feel?
The feeling of lost. Like everything is going against your way.

Today (or rather yesterday), Kenneth told me my friend which lives beside him is living in pain.
This really pains me so much so that my heart cannot take it anymore. I can say this pain is worst than any heartbreaks my friend has had.
6 years of friendship. How many had we went through, Mr KCS? More than we can ever count.

Say it with me. FUCK LIFE.
Lol, again man! FUCK LIFE.
LOUDER! FUCK LIFE.
Nice one. You life do sucks. fyl.

Now I wanna ask. WHO THE HELL INVENTED VECTORS?
WHO THE HELL HAVE SO MUCH TIME IN THE WORLD TO THINK OF ARROWS IN FREE SPACE?
WAIT, WHO THE HELL CREATED THAT 3D THINKING IMAGE IN OUR BRAIN?
WAIT, WHO CREATED THE GOD DAMN BRAIN THAT IS USED TO THINKING?
WAIT, WHO CREATED THE HUMANS?
WAIT, WHY ARE THERE HUMANS?
WAIT, WHY IS THERE EARTH?
WAIT, WHY IS THERE THE SOLAR SYSTEM?
WAIT, WHY IS THERE THE UNIVERSE?
WAIT, WHY ARE THERE THINGS?
WHY NOT NOTHING (NOT EVEN A BLANK SPACE)?
I MEAN, WHY ARE THERE A PLACE FOR EVERYTHING TO BE IN?

SO GOD CREATED US? BUT THEY DIDN'T TELL US OUR OBJECTIVE IN THIS GAME CALLED 'LIFE'.

COMPLEX NUMBERS ARE EASIER THAN VECTORS. TRUE STORY.
VECTORS ISN'T FOR HUMANS TO DO, DUMBOS!

Operation Spotting my Materialistic Female 'Friend' (OSMFF)

JC girls aren't my cup of tea at all.
I think I'm the kind of guy that prefer poly girls -_-
(This doesn't mean I'm a flirt. Just telling the truth.)

Anyway, sometimes it's good to ignore me.
At least I know I'm disrupting your life,
which makes me back off automatically.

Sometimes, simple words like 'Please do not care about my life' or 'Get the fuck out of my life' can do the job.
You do not have to do all these junkies to show it to me indirectly.
Because sometimes I don't catch what you're trying to bring across,
and it gave me the idea that I'm doing the right stuff.

The shorter the pain the better, isn't it?

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less, or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

One day I'm really gonna run away from home and never come back.

I just had a quarrel with my parents. All they want me to do is to score well and get into a uni.
But they don't know a fuck about how I'm struggling through this two years of my life.
Being discriminated at, detest upon, ignored and laughed at.
Give me tuition teachers? No thanks. I learn nothing in tuitions.
I hate how all my friends are enjoying life in poly, while I'm the only idiot that's struggling in a JC.
Sometimes I really can't take the amount of stuff the school give.
Out of all the 4 homeworks (the 4H2), I can't even do one.
I can't even start on my physics tutorial because I don't know a single shit.
And no matter how much and how in depth I study, I can't seems to pass my chemistry test.
I don't even know the way to answer econs questions and all the teacher want is for me to get an A.
Eh a freaking 'A'? WTH, of course you teachers know it's easy because all you have to know is,
one single subject and how many years have you guys teached that subject? 5? 10? 15?
How about us? Studying 5 subjects at a time, and have to know everything within 2 years?
I just want to cry my way to death. So many people put high hopes on me but I can't make them happy.
I need a study buddy. I shouldn't be thinking about stuff that will never happen. But can't help it.
I want to live a life of my own.

It's the last week of school. Persevere! I can't ):

There's no point of me complaining about how much I hate school. You can say I'm an extremist in this.
I can't even do my Quantum Physics tutorial at all.
I can't seems to find the mood to start on my 2 x Econs case study.
I can't find the ability to make myself work on Vectors 19C.
I can't start on my electro-chemistry revisions.

You don't need a parachute, because I'll be there to catch you if you fall.

Tajuu Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!!!!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~
RASENGAN!!!! CHIDORI!!!!
Taijutsu OGI, SANNAN GOROSHI!

LOL, just spam out my Naruto stuff :x

Tajuu Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!!!!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~
RASENGAN!!!! CHIDORI!!!!
Taijutsu OGI, SANNAN GOROSHI!

LOL, just spam out my Naruto stuff :x

Please know that I'll always be there whenever you need me.
Even if I'm from the other part of the world, I'll do all I can to be with you.
Because friends are meant to be there for a reason.

Is my life very happening?

Orianthi - Shut Up & Kiss Me

This love (love) hate (hate) relationship
You say you can't handle it
But there's no way to stop this now
So shut up and kiss me

Chanice - Pyramid (ft. Iyaz)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, like a pyramid

Iyaz - Solo

And I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo

And I heard Replay by Iyaz immediately when I woke up just now.
Iyaz is all around my world now LOL!

Singapore toped the World's Competitiveness World Book 2010, beating US as the top of 2009.
Singapore is now the world’s most competitive nation. Yay! (Y)

http://www.imd.ch/research/publications/wcy/upload/scoreboard.pdf

Quite xing fu and proud that I'm a Singaporean.

Omg, I can't believe all the teachers say I'm a slacker -_- Mr Sean Choo, Miss Chew and Mr Shankar!
LOL, they say I'm too playful. I like <3
"Mrs Yong, Yaojun is too distracted, not serious and talkative in class. He have the potential to do it, but he have to move out of his comfort zone and pay more attention in class. He's too relaxed." says the teachers.
They also say I need to ask questions when in doubt. I've never asked questions before cos' I don't like. I like to be independent.
When I told them about my problem for not performing, which is not motivated, and constantly being discriminated by my classmates (for being a Sec 5), which demoralises me, they told me this "Why do you care about them?"
The problem is, I can't cover my ears and ignore them, can I? When those words get into my ears, I just felt disappointed.
Singaporeans are too realistic. I wonder which fellow in JJ doesn't discriminate me at all. I can't find a single soul that don't.

"Wow, Yaojun didn't have tuition since primary school? He's actually very smart because he can still score so well in his O's and get into one of the best class. Last minute work can work for O's, but definitely not A's."
Damn, I hate starting revision so early. Is last minute work really not useful at all? Someone tell me please.
I started my revision for O's two weeks before exams, can I do the same (say 4 weeks before) for A's?

Dota destroy chances. True story.
Destroy a guy's chance to chase a girl.
But also, it harms relationships.
Kinships, friendships, courtship and most importantly, relationship.
Fighting with family members, cyber insulting with friends, quarreling with girlfriend leading to disappointment.
Most girls treat dota as a boyfriend stealer. But I think it still comes down to the guy itself.
The ability to stop, and the ability to control. And be sensitive and have a sense of awareness.
A guy should still reply his gf's SMS and MSN, and most importantly, at the same frequency as when you're not dota-ing.
Know when your gf is angry/sad/uneasy/insecure. Sacrifice your game for your gf to accompany her when you can.
Act afk halfway (I always do so) or give fake excuses to your friends that your bro is using/need to help dad do stuff,
to accompany your gf through the phone if she's down. Do not leave her aside alone. Girl alone = EMO TIME.
But also, do not reject your friends for dota too much. This can harm friendships too.

This is dedicated to my dearest BY and his gf, who always fight due to this. :x
Don't kill me after you see this, if not I kill your gf then you know. LOL, jkjk! -_-
(I feel like I'm a 80y/o man, lol :/) AND I THINK I GAVE TOO MUCH ADVISE ZZZ.
And doesn't it make me dulan when you act afk (since I even taught you)? LOL OMG. SELF PWNED ): SELF OWNED ):

Anyway...

One of the epicest picture I've ever seen.

PS: You should reflect if you don't know what it means.

Butter Factory, Wavehouse Sentosa or Powerhouse tomorrow?
I don't think I'd be going to any of them. :/ I'm trying to be a good boy nao.
But there's a flea flow market at Wavehouse tmr, and my friend is asking me to go.
Wl, I prefer going to Universal Studios at Sentosa lo. I haven't been there before btw!

Just came back from fetching my bro to Changi army camp.
1 more week before he's officially out of being a NSF man! (:
PTM tomorrow. Dammit. Can I pon?
Anyway, it's the last week before holiday.
But holiday still must go back to school! ):
I don't feel like going back. )))):

Daughtry - September

Half the time passed away
All the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste?
All the promises we made
One by one they vanished just the same

All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of September
We still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear
There's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long
That summer's moving on
Reach for something that's already gone
Yeah

All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of September
We still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Yeah we knew we had to lose this time
But we never knew when, and we never knew how
We would end up where we are
Yeah we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when, and we never knew how
Never knew anything

All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of September
We still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Hey, yeah, yeah

We're always angry at people for doing too much or too little of anything and everything. There was never a neutral point.

-YaoJun

So many regrets in life.

I can't seems to do my Chem homework. Too hard.
Someone help me please.

Ever wondered why is the earth made so perfectly?
Living on earth, food/water is essential.
Or just think it scientifically, why are there atoms/molecules?
Why are there liquids? Why can zebras only eat grass?
Or even, why are there millions of different species on the earth?
Why are there land and sea? To look out of the scope, why is there universe?
Why are there stars and clouds? Why isn't the sky falling down?
Why does all the planets revolves around the Sun? Why is the moon revolving only around the Earth?
Why is there in such coincidence that Moon is with the Earth all the time in the first place?
We'd never be able to survive when there's no Moon. But there's moon.
I know all can be explained by science. But my point is, why does science work in this way?
Or better still, why is there science? Why all animals have a heart?
Why does insects survive without a heart? Why is there rain and thunder?
Why are there colours? Why is there sound? Why humans breathe oxygen to survive, but not hydrogen?
Why does humans have five fingers in one hand, and not 4 or 6?
Why are there oxygen and hydrogen, or gold, platinum, aluminium or proteins in the first place?
Why is there love? Why does people fall in love? Is the chemistry of love created for a purpose?
Is these all too coincidental, or all these were well planned by something/someone?
What is the theory behind this?

Why is everything fitted so nicely?
As in, there are air, oxygen, plants, water, temperature, moisture and everything set nicely for us to live in.
Everything were so nicely planned? Why isn't the average temperature of the earth 80 degrees, but 25 degrees?
If this is so, humans were never existed. Maybe some form of creature will dominate the world?

Some may say all these were created by God. But who created God?
So God created the universe? Or does it even exist?
Why is there universe? Why are there things? I mean, can't everything just don't exist at all?
Nothing at all. No humans, planets, stars, neutron stars, meteoroids, the universe.
It should be like no one should ever be existed. Who the hell created all these? The Sun?
Who created it? If people say it was created when massive amount of particles react together.
Where does all these particles come from?
What is the first god-damn thing that appeared in this universe first?

There are too many whys for humans to explore. But still, humans can never find the meaning of how two humans fall in love with each other.
Where (not what) is the feeling of love in the first place? In the mind, in the heart, around us or?

I can go on forever.

- YaoJun

THERE'S AN OGRE IN IN THE STUDIO THURSDAY!!!!!!! (((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

So now that you know, are you gonna ignore me? Please do.

599

I really can't find the motivation to do anything.
Well, not really anything. Studies in particular.
Why? Why people in my class have it? Why?
WHY? CAN SOME ONE FREAKING TELL ME?
Shit this man. Seriously. Period.

I need a study buddy man, srsly.
But which dumbass in the right mind would study with me?
I don't need an all A's study buddy. I don't mind one who scores all S and U.
I just need someone to study with me, so I have the motivation.
But who the hell would study with me in the first place?
My results sucks to the core. SSSSEA. Like MapleSEA sia.

I saw 11:11AM and 11:11PM yesterday.
I saw 1:11PM and 1:11AM yesterday and today respectively.
I got an 1111 amount when I spent my gold to buy stuff in an online game on my Nexus One.
I even saw 238191111 receipt number when I went to the nearby petrol station to buy ice cream.
My right eyes had been twitching non-stop for days.
People say when the right eyes twitch, it's either good luck is coming, or there's something I ought to know/do which I haven't.
What is all these about?

P.S: Now playing: The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart

Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife


I don't demand it because I'm afraid of finding out more stuff/secrets about you that will make me more engrossed over you.
Because I myself know I don't even stand a chance. Totally different life we have.

I can't seems to memorise my SPA stuff now FFS!
What is wrong with me? Am I thinking too much?

I just found out I'm a guy that doesn't like to show myself to the world much.
I prefer to tell someone stuff privately, than showing it to the world.
I'm a guy that doesn't say hi to someone first, unless I'm super close to you.
I don't purposely make myself popular in school just for the fame.
I prefer to lay low, and someone who laugh quietly unless someone laugh it out loud first.

Does this prove that I'm an introvert?

cause...
When I'm kissing you my senses come alive.
When I'm kissing you it all starts making sense.

- Miranda Cosgrove

WTF MY HOUSE'S ELECTRICITY BILL COST ~$700 / MTH.
I THINK IMMA HELP MY DAD PAY MORE NAO. I FEEL BAD FOR HIM! ):
A FREAKING S$700!

Sometimes I really feel like I should've stayed in CJ.
So much enjoyable and crazier. Life sucks in JJ.
The environment, the atmosphere and the people.

My right eye's still twitching. Why is this happening?
And night thunderstorm sucks! ): scares so many people.
But I'm not scared of it! HAHAHAHAH!
Tomorrow's my physics SPA. I haven't started on anything yet.
Wah, I feel owned from the time. Always ticking, and it sucks.
This will still be my standard place for my rants and stuff.
Rawr. Meow. *nom nom*
Anyway, bye bye Twitter. You changed my life, for the better (worst) though.

Funny how people say you give helpful advice. Yet you, yourself, don’t even follow it.

No matter how valuable she really is, flirting too much makes you lose your value.

And should I make my blog go public?
Should I share my tumblr link here too?
Should I unlock my private blog?

A Girl asked a Boy:
-Do you think i'm pretty?
-He said NO....
-Do you want to be with me forever?
-He said NO
-Would you cry if i left?
-Once again He replied with a NO.
-She had heard enough;
-As she walked away tears ran down her face.
The boy grabbed her arm and said:
-You're not pretty you're BEAUTIFUL.
-I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
-And I wouldn't cry if you walked away..... I would DIE.


Sent from Love Poems http://bit.ly/34a7xx by Android's HTC Google Nexus One.

BE STRONG! (:

说了再见 by 周杰伦 is a very sad song.

There was once...
I miss the times where I had my first crush (not those frm pri sch).
I miss the times where I SMS my first crush a love poem found online every night for days.

I miss the times where I'd blush (for a guy like me) when I'm infront of my true love.
I miss the times where I SMS her a love poem created by myself every night for 3 straight years (there are times where I fell asleep, but I still SMS one after I woke up).

But now, I don't (hopefully).

Someone said to me on MSN:
*guys like u extinct alr man

And there again, another guy said:
*you should try to be like every guy out there now
*u see now every guy out there is surviving
*be a flirt like every guy
*guys like u arent surviving

Are guys like me really can't survive in this world?

As expected. I seems to have everything and nothing.
Sounds ironic eh?

I really have the feeling again. S-I-G-H.

I like people who actually make an effort to keep a conversation alive.

All of a sudden, it hit me. I realized I’m the one catching people when they fall… and now I wonder, who’s gonna catch me?

Got it from Mariko's tumblr

i almost cried when i watched this video. it’s not the first time i heard this song, but hearing it being sung by the then 16 year old Charice, singing it to her mother who raised her up, it really touched me. ‘cos if you truly knew their story. About how her abusive father left the family, and she had to start singing at the age of 7 just so the family could afford to put food on the table, how they struggled through all that.

she’s 18! MY age. and yet her voice is as powerful as powerhouses like Mariah Carey and Celine Dion! she makes me SO envious i swear.

I didn’t even know she was the one who sang “Pyramid”, the song that’s been playing over the radio. It’s already on the top 100 on itunes mind you!

Quotes from The Notebook.

So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.

I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but in one respect I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough.

She had come back into his life like a sudden flame; blazing and streaming into his heart. Noah stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her twice.

Southern summers are indifferent to the trials of young love. Armed with warnings and doubts, Noah and Allie gave a remarkably convincing portrayal of a boy and a girl traveling down a very long road with no regard for the consequences.

And the epicest quote of all in the movie:

Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.

"i used to love you so, so much. even as i watched you change, i tried to convince myself that i still loved you. but you're not. you're way far from where you've come from. you no longer Just Dance. and with each change, i started falling a little out of love with you..."

— ~ BingYing

“But more often than not, the most healing thing that we can do with someone who is in pain, rather than trying to get rid of that pain, is to sit there and be willing to share it. We have to learn to hear and to bear other people’s pain. That is all part of becoming more conscious.”

— ~ M. Scott Peck, Further Along the Road Less Traveled

This is pathetic how people from (J)JC can't enjoy life, and mug for days and nights.
It's saddening to see my friend from CJC enjoying their life in Phuture, Rebel, Zirca and Powerhouse; while none of my friends in JJC actually go to those places.
They kinda find that people who went there = inhumane (LOL?), gangsterified place (eh, it's time to open your god-damn eyes to see the world), perverts (you should go to geylang/bugis to see the real kind of perverts), et cetera..

Holy shit.

“In some ways you’re pretty lucky. You opened your heart, you put yourself out there; you were ready to make that leap. I’m envious; I wish I knew what that felt like - to find someone who makes you wanna swim across the east river in January.”

— ~ Ugly Betty

REMINISCE THE TIMES.

I miss my secondary school life. ):

All the fun we had, and all the craps we do.

The fights we had, detention (and running away to buy food), suspension (because of lame reasons), pranks (esp with bry), the laughters, the teasing, the taking of numbers from girls because of losing an open number game (-.-), sabo each other, do nearly a thousand squarts to get back all the stuff in my wallet, the fear of getting caught when we bring cigg to sch, having arena fighting in the nearby carpark, running away from spot checks, skipping doing homeworks, late for school on purpose to eat at the nearby foodcourt, run away from school because we're sick of sch on that day, playing block catching during PE lessons in school (with the school building though), the canning we had in sch, the time where the whole class got caught by the DM always, without fail (since our class is the naughtiest and notorious from Sec 1 all the way to Sec 5), making the principal change our english teacher for almost 10 times during sec 2, get caught from using black hair spray and cutting different kind of hairstyles that were not allowed, not willing to cut our hair in sch and defiant, play truancy, the sarcastic laughs we had for each other because of their lame actions, sms-ing non-stop in sch, playing a soccer match using durian (LOL), fighting with teachers, report teachers of speaking vulgarities to principal, and the list goes on...

I miss our sec 2 years where I will talk about zombies flying up the building and catch us when we're at the roof of jon's HDB apartment, slacking every school day in the midnight and talk about anything and everything under the moon, playing arena in wow with bryan over the phone that span close to S$400 phone bill, the dota matches we had everyday at night at our mehz clan (barcode ftw), had to keep my friend in my house to stay because he ran away from home (-.-), and the list goes on...

I know I'm naughty. But this is me, and I don't mind being who am I, and living in what kind of environment I'm in! :D

Me and Shikin!

Jon, Jacq, Wenjie and me!

me, khai and firman!Me and maomao!

Me and bel!

Chem SPA ended. Don't wish to comment on it.
I have PTM on a random Saturday.
Spoils my weekend mood man.
JC sucks big time. (N) TRUE STORY.

Anyway, TGIF! Wah it's friday again! (Y)
But why is weekend always so short?
We need more time to rest!
I need a getaway!

Hahahahhahah!!!

I can’t promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won’t have to face them alone.

Sometimes you need a breakdown. One of those yell at everyone, cry until you fall, and can’t breathe kind of breakdowns. Then hopefully, you’ll feel a bit better. And if not, then at least people know you’re not okay.

I never knew I can find someone I love so much.

God gave us mouths that close and ears that don’t - that should tell us something.

- You need not have to comment on anything, but you got to be a listening ear.

To my friend who's suffering now

To my friend who's suffering now
I know that life is hard. I know that everything isn't going the way you want.
But please persevere to the end, and remember that there is always someone out there you can talk to.
A friend that can be your listening ear, give you a shoulder to cry on; a friend that you can look upon.
Someone who may not comment on anything, but just be by your side when you needed most.
A listening friend is what you need. Look around you and I'm sure there are lots of them out there.
And do remember, when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

For I know that if one is born perfect, there is no story left to tell.
Always tell yourself that God will never give you more than you can handle.

— ~ Yao Jun

And if you’re still thinking of him two hours later, you’re in love. Gwan, love is a simple thing. It’s either you love, or you don’t. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don’t.

You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and Jacky is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of you to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push you both apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc.

However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called love.

If this is my car.

Hey, everyone. I urge you guys to donate money to cancer children, or children that were affected by it.
http://www.hairforhope.org.sg/

Please spare a few dollars for these affected children.
http://www.hairforhope.org.sg/hfh/donation/donate
I'm donating too. So, please help! (:
There is also an event for this.

HAIR FOR HOPE 2010
Date: 25 July 2010, Sunday
Time: 10:00am - 8:00pm
Venue: VivoCity (Central Court)
Guest-of-Honour: President S.R. Nathan

Find me for more info.
With love, Yaojun (:

I
feel
like
dying
right
now.

I
can't
take
it
anymore.

I'm
breaking
down
already.

Leave
me
alone.

Please help to save dolphins that're being slaughtered in Japan.
This is the second time I'm asking you guys (:
Because this is the second time I saw Hayden Panettiere crying for them.
Help to save life, help to save Mother Earth (:
Sign petition, or donote money. Your love will be much appreciated.

I have nothing to say if you don't fucking appreciate it, and take it for granted.

This PAIN is really killing me. SOS!

I wanna watch The Karate Kid.
My Big Brother's iPhone after jailbreak is super nice.

Why is everyone talking about the Econs test now?
You see what I mean? The difference between people from a neighbourhood school, and people from top notch schools.
The difference between people who leave their books for 48 hours, and people who never leave their books for a minute.
I really wonder if I have a friend that is in the same situation as me.
None in my class actually, so to speak. I really want poly life. I really wanna return to Sec 2.
Talking about school work everyday sucks. Not for you people, but for me.
Not even a single bit please. Do not disrupt my getaway.
And I've yet to start my revision on the test. But who cares, not? Me.
Talk about club, ton, drink, slack, smoke, dance, shop, eat etc.. with me, pretty please.
I. Feel. Like. Smoking. Back. Now. Should I?

Anyway, Club21 just invited me to their fashion show again.
http://www.club21global.com/
I'm saving money for a Y-3 (Yohji Yamamoto) coat now, and a D&G Tuxedo.
I'm in the process of making my MBS Previlege VISA Credit Card!
Yay, can shop like nobody's business once I have that!

Extinction, though, is usually a natural phenomenon; it is estimated that 99.9% of all species that have ever lived are now extinct. (OMG)

It's gone. Sigh.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars.
I could really use a wish right now. (:

Mahjong session and Iron Man 2 tonight! (Y)

Mahjong session and Iron Man 2 tonight! (Y)