Today (or rather yesterday), Kenneth told me my friend which lives beside him is living in pain.
This really pains me so much so that my heart cannot take it anymore. I can say this pain is worst than any heartbreaks my friend has had.
6 years of friendship. How many had we went through, Mr KCS? More than we can ever count.



I still remember how I became your first friend during your retained sec 2 class (which is mine).
I still remember how you taught me the game Dota. I still remember how you used your lion to kill both me and tsui.
I still remember how I always meet you early in the morning, only to have you wait for me till we got late for school.
I still remember how you always wait for me at the nearby petrol station to buy bread to eat while on our way to school.
I still remember how you always get stomachache from eating breakfast at such an early unholy timing.
I still remember how I made you angry one day early in the class, only to have you push me right through the glass.
I still remember how we sacrifice for the girl we love (which happens to be the same girl) for our brotherhood.
I still remember how you always chat to me online; the girlie and sweet way (for a guy, (Y)).
I still remember how we always chat on the phone until the next morning and we both doze off during school.
I still remember how you quarrel with tsui at the Palawan beach in Sentosa because of some misunderstanding.
I still remember how you fight with JX at the beach because he look damn xialan when we first knew him.
I still remember how you always call me to ask me what to do to chase this girl, knowing I'm actually noob at this.
I still remember how me, you and bryan always get caught during chinese lessons for talking and joking non-stop.
I still remember how me, tsui and bryan laugh at you for wearing the 'Camel Throphy Adventure Wear' t-shirt.
I still remember how you always use your black marker to highlight the G-SHOCK word on your watch that was fallen off.
I still remember how you and I always give in to each other's quarrel because we do not want to harm our friendship.
I still remember how you fight with teacher, and I do all I can do hold you back to prevent you from being expelled.
I still remember how I take a girl's number the first time because we lost an open number game.
I still remember how you always put the eating utensils and plates back because you lost an open number game.
I still remember how we always run away from classes and detentions to eat at the canteen, only to be caught by DM.
I still remember how we planned to trick the OM into our trap, only to be trapped by our own trick at the end.
I still remember how you always want me to bring black hair spray to spray your hair black during hair checks.
I still remember how we hide cigarettes from being caught by passing around between us during spot checks.
I still remember how you always end up being scolded with me even though you did nothing wrong at all.
I still remember how you surprise me during my birthday by being the first person to give me 16 birthday bashes.
I still remember how we always meet HH to chat all the way for almost 24 hours about anything and everything.
I still remember...

I'm tired of continue writing because I know I can spend hours writing this non-stop.
It really pains me seeing you suffer like this, but all I can do is NOTHING.
At times, I cry at home alone and nobody knows it at all.
Sometimes, I really have to put up a mask and fake a smile.
I've been suffering for almost two years now, that you've vanished from our usual life.
The life where we're always together to be happy, sad, angry, jealous, envious, naive, fighting, getting caught etc..
You know, sometimes I wish the person to be me, suffering alone. I rather suffer for you, than you suffering for yourself.
You really changed my life, for the worst. You're one of my only true friend that do not look on the material side of friendship.